A Journey

"why do I like reading books? After all, it was just a collection of paper with black ink which is sometimes blurry," That was me in junior high school. "It's a waste of time, after all we have a lot of films, many television shows. How long do you want to be old by reading books? "I continued at the time. That was me, a little bastard who still doesn't know that I'm struggle here because of you and your ego, a little knowledge, a little education, and too much free time.

And the stupid thing is, I keep that ego until I go to college. The place where knowledge depend on books and journals. Upset and regretful, seeing friend became smart just because of a single heavy tome. While me, still trying to fill my head with the same books in the corner of the classroom. Why are they smart and i’m not? Am I stupid? Am I unlucky? I thought at that time when i was still in the corner of the classroom.

until I realized that it wasn't a matter of Cleverness, it wasn't a problem of intelligence either. Someone once said to me in another context that "try to love the things, before you do the things". It hit me because I realized it was something annoying but at that time I was forced to feel it. All is not a problem of the brain, but a problem of the heart. I don't like reading, that's what I realize now. keep up with the baseless egoism that little bastard brings.

Maybe it's too late to regret it, but it's never too late to change it. finding for a supportive environment, start looking for reasons to read, and try to love reading books. In the end I fell behind, but to get to this point I was really really grateful, surrounded by very supportive friends, supported by such a great organization, and perhaps I can call it as my second family . That was me... today

Hahaha. I love reading